shit it's been awhile.

I have a bunch of tattoo flash I did, which I'd *like* to put up, but am unsure whether or not I should.

Frankly, of all my artwork, I am the most sensitive about this art being stolen. I did do a watermark, but I don't really feel that it's enough to "protect" it.

Any tips on how I can watermark something and still have the image be easily viewed, and not detracted from? Also so it wont be printed out, and brought to some no-ethics-hack of a tattoo artist for reproduction?




Friends (both IRL, and those I've met online):
=monkeegirl,=robinism,*Chicopek,`timmy64,~Lyzart,=Zeverus
~dablinksousa,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,~vampiremistresslexia,
~iryokuatae,~ThePeonWhoCan,~MrDanger,`junoknight,~Easel



The People Who Watch Me:
~vampiremistresslexia,~iryokuatae,~PyxidTheNutcaze,~screw-dr-jekyll,
~sucides-calling-me,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,*srinity,
~ivebeenbitten,~Amita-Eppes,~admx,~dablinksousa,~Wolfsbane872,
,=Zeverus,~Czar-of-Randomness,~iceiclepop,~Lyzart,~EnjoyBjork,*Chicopek,
=monkeegirl,~robotchicken35,~ObviousWeakness,~Lanolin,`timmy64,
~shadow-soul,~RuinousActivity,~Johnwedd,=robinism,~tedgushue,
=devouredex,~Easel,=IBinsanity,~Phospheratu,~madmav,~MrDanger,
~Kuh-Ris-Tin ~CrimsonFloodArt,=LP4ng3l-for-lif3,~Chaosx387,~here-have-a-toaster,





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When it rains, it pours. Both literally and metaphorically.

I'm in the middle of a shitty Nor'easter which dumped about 5 inches of rain on us today. It is supposed to continue raining until Friday.

I've been pretty unhappy lately. it mostly stems from a situation that began in February of '06. So I've been miserable for over a year now. Emotionally, it's come to head, and I just don't think I'm capable of dealing with it. I'd been good about fighting off the tears for the past year or so, but in the last three weeks I've started losing the battle. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of feeling empty.

My mom called me at lunch, as she always does, just to chat. My neighbor and I are good friends. She and her family have always been good to me and my parents. Her mom was recently diagnosed with cancer, and from what I'm being told, she's decided to throw in the towel. People are saying she probably wont make it until next week. It makes me sad, they've had such a rough few years. Things just keep getting worse. They are probably going to lose their house. If my neighbor's mom passes away, they can't even afford to bury her. I wish I could do something.

Around 8:30 tonight my dad drove my mom to the ER. She's got fluid around her brain, and they found a 2.5cm mass on her MRI's. She's been in a lot of pain lately. She's been sick her whole life, even when she was a little kid. She keeps talking about giving up, and how tired of fighting she is. It hurts to hear her talk like that. She's been through so much. I just don't even know how to process it anymore. I can't even form a thought about it. I'm too numb.

Of course, this makes her think I don't care. It's not that I don't care; I just care too much. I can't even rationalize what's happening around me anymore. I don't react anymore. I can't. I'm a walking corpse.

The honeymoon period at my job is over. That place is just fucked. Management couldn't catch a clue if they had Ramirez on their team. I'm tired of being blamed for mistakes which are not mine. I am ALWAYS accountable for my screw-ups. If I make a mistake, I'm the first one to march up to my boss, and let him know the mistake I made, and the steps that I plan on taking to prevent it from happening again. Yet the management blames me and my crew for their mistakes, and I can't seem to do a damn thing to clear my name. They don't pay me enough to be accountable for other people's shit.

In other news; I have 2 complete pieces, and a third which just needs to be shaded. I have at least another 30 to do. It wouldn't be hard if I could conceive a worthwhile future, but I can't, so I'm not even remotely motivated to finish things at the moment.

It's funny how growing up, I never knew what I wanted. I had NO clue what my future would be. Then when I turned 18 I suddenly knew what I wanted and who I wanted it with. Nothing had ever been so clear, or perfect to me. Then it all faded away. Without the who, the what doesn't matter. Success and dreams are nothing, if you don't have someone to share them with.

Here I was thinking 2007 was going to be a better year than it's predecessors. I guess it was a sophomoric ideal at best.

Friends (both IRL, and those I've met online):
=monkeegirl,=robinism,*Chicopek,=timmy64,~Lyzart,=Zeverus
~dablinksousa,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,~vampiremistresslexia,
~iryokuatae,~ThePeonWhoCan,~MrDanger,=junoknight,=Easel



The People Who Watch Me:
~vampiremistresslexia,~iryokuatae,~PyxidTheNutcaze,~screw-dr-jekyll,
~sucides-calling-me,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,*srinity,
~ivebeenbitten,~Amita-Eppes,~admx,~dablinksousa,~Wolfsbane872,
,=Zeverus,~Czar-of-Randomness,~iceiclepop,~Lyzart,~EnjoyBjork,*Chicopek,
=monkeegirl,~robotchicken35,~ObviousWeakness,~Lanolin,=timmy64,
~shadow-soul,~RuinousActivity,~Johnwedd,=robinism,~tedgushue,
=devouredex,=Easel,=IBinsanity,~Phospheratu,~madmav,~MrDanger,
~Kuh-Ris-Tin ~CrimsonFloodArt,~LP4ng3l-for-lif3,~Chaosx387,~here-have-a-toaster,





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So I haven't updated in 4 months. lawl.

I have a shit load of artwork which I unfortunately can't share with you. At least not until I consult the person buying said work. So maybe soon?

Um, hmm. Quick rundown of the last 4 months

I had my first session for my tattoo on December 18th 06. Then 4 days later I ended up in the hospital with a SEVERE case of cellulitis. I had an allergic reaction to some airborne material at work, which left an open wound. Then the open would was infected by the resident bacteria on my leg. Had I waited another day to go to the hospital I would have lost my leg.

They put me on antibiotics, and the infection cleared up, and amazingly my tattoo still looks great. So Hopefully I'll go for the next sitting soon.

Right now I'm working on tattoo flash for my portfolio, so hopefully I can get an apprenticeship with a tattoo artist. Then I can quit my shitty job.

Work has completely consumed my life up until this point.




Friends (both IRL, and those I've met online):
=monkeegirl,=robinism,*Chicopek,=timmy64,~Lyzart,=Zeverus
~dablinksousa,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,~vampiremistresslexia,
~iryokuatae,~ThePeonWhoCan,~MrDanger,=junoknight,=Easel



The People Who Watch Me:
~vampiremistresslexia,~iryokuatae,~PyxidTheNutcaze,~screw-dr-jekyll,
~sucides-calling-me,~deerlegs,~moonjava,*Andoledius,*srinity,
~ivebeenbitten,~Amita-Eppes,~admx,~dablinksousa,~Wolfsbane872,
,=Zeverus,~Czar-of-Randomness,~iceiclepop,~Lyzart,~EnjoyBjork,*Chicopek,
=monkeegirl,~robotchicken35,~ObviousWeakness,~Lanolin,=timmy64,
~shadow-soul,~RuinousActivity,~Johnwedd,=robinism,~tedgushue,
=devouredex,=Easel,=IBinsanity,~Phospheratu,~madmav,~MrDanger,
~Kuh-Ris-Tin ~CrimsonFloodArt,~LP4ng3l-for-lif3,~Chaosx387,~here-have-a-toaster,





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ok, so I went and saw jamey and he scheduled me for tonight at 6. Then he realized how large I wanted the tattoo to be. Basically a calf gauntlet.

So, now I'm rescheduled for this thursday from 7-10.

It's going to take THREE sittings to finish, and will cost 200 dollars per sitting.






Friends (both IRL, and those I've met online):
=monkeegirl,=robinism,*Chicopek,=timmy64,~Lyzart,=Zeverus
~dablinksousa,~deerlegs,~moonjava,=Andoledius,~vampiremistresslexia,
~iryokuatae,~ThePeonWhoCan,~MrDanger,=junoknight,=Easel



The People Who Watch Me:
~vampiremistresslexia,~iryokuatae,~PyxidTheNutcaze,~screw-dr-jekyll,
~sucides-calling-me,~deerlegs,~moonjava,=Andoledius,*srinity,
~ivebeenbitten,~Amita-Eppes,=admx,~dablinksousa,~Wolfsbane872,
,=Zeverus,~Czar-of-Randomness,~iceiclepop,~Lyzart,~EnjoyBjork,*Chicopek,
=monkeegirl,~robotchicken35,~ObviousWeakness,~Lanolin,=timmy64,
~shadow-soul,~RuinousActivity,~Johnwedd,=robinism,~tedgushue,
=devouredex,=Easel,~IBinsanity,~Phospheratu,~madmav,~MrDanger,
~Kuh-Ris-Tin ~CrimsonFloodArt,~LP4ng3l-for-lif3,~Chaosx387,~here-have-a-toaster,





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So, The tattoo is all drawn up and can be seen Here: [link]

So you should leave some love on that.

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I'm gonna try and spin down today and drop off the sketch, and if not today then tomorrow, after work.

I'm fuckin' beat. I spent all day yesterday moving furniture. Now I have to go back to work tomorrow.

I cleaned my room today. My desk is clean .

So I'mma go shower and shave now.




Friends (both IRL, and those I've met online):
=monkeegirl,=robinism,*Chicopek,=timmy64,~Lyzart,=Zeverus
~dablinksousa,~deerlegs,~moonjava,=Andoledius,~vampiremistresslexia,
~iryokuatae,~ThePeonWhoCan,~MrDanger,=junoknight,=Easel



The People Who Watch Me:
~vampiremistresslexia,~iryokuatae,~PyxidTheNutcaze,~screw-dr-jekyll,
~sucides-calling-me,~deerlegs,~moonjava,=Andoledius,*srinity,
~ivebeenbitten,~Amita-Eppes,=admx,~dablinksousa,~Wolfsbane872,
,=Zeverus,~Czar-of-Randomness,~iceiclepop,~Lyzart,~EnjoyBjork,*Chicopek,
=monkeegirl,~robotchicken35,~ObviousWeakness,~Lanolin,=timmy64,
~shadow-soul,~RuinousActivity,~Johnwedd,=robinism,~tedgushue,
=devouredex,=Easel,~IBinsanity,~Phospheratu,~madmav,~MrDanger,
~Kuh-Ris-Tin ~CrimsonFloodArt,~LP4ng3l-for-lif3,~Chaosx387,~here-have-a-toaster,





*rusty-nail is responsible for the code contained in the journal